known for that matter. Your mom……..”
“Mc… don’t…” I could feel my eyes filling with tears already building up and I held the phone away from my ear for a minute.
“Ash, all I am trying to tell you is give it a chance. Let your guard down. If you don’t you might never meet your destined fate. I know what you saw growing up, I was with you. I know what you went through with the losers you dated. I know what you see every day and how you want to solve everyone’s problems at the shelter, but you have to be happy too. Don’t be afraid to be happy, don’t be afraid of him and most of all don’t be afraid of getting hurt. You have to take risks. Listen to me, listen to your heart, and if your heart says jump on him, do it. No regrets bestie. Call me in the morning, love you girl.”
“No regrets Mc, good night. Love you too blondie.”
I took a bath and soaked for a good hour. It felt so good after a long day. I slipped on my extra long t-shirt, ratty as all get out that I wear to bed, rubbed my lotion on, brushed my teeth and curled up under the sheets. Tomorrow would be an early morning. I sure did miss my Max. He always slept at the end of my bed where my feet were like he is guarding me. He was the perfect dog, a fawn boxer.
As I lay drifting off to sleep I thought of Cooper’s smile and could almost feel his touch on my hand. I touched my hand where he kissed me earlier and wished I had something with his smell on it to breathe in.
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~Ashlynn ~
McKoy and Grace were my two soul sisters. They are like my sun and my moon, totally different girls, but I need them just the same. McKoy is a petite girl with beautiful long blonde hair with hazel eyes. She was perfect and always looked the part.
McKoy is a one man kind of woman. She met Beau in high school and from that instant she started to plan her whole life around him. She knew the minute their eyes locked that he was her soul mate and she worshipped him.
McKoy came from a home that was wealthy and strict. Her parents expected her to live a high society life. Beau’s parents were very much the same. His family did not want him consumed by women and wanted him to play all the sports. His parents had his whole future planned for him as did McKoy’s. She was expected to take over her grandparent’s winery after college. McKoy’s parents didn’t like Beau from the get go. He was a playboy the way they saw it. They also knew very well how Beau’s father was and how he ran around on his mother. McKoy’s parents knew how badly she loved Beau. From their side, they just hoped he would screw it up and McKoy wouldn’t get hurt permanently in the process.
Beau feels the same connection with McKoy and wants to make McKoy his. He cherishes her. She is definitely a challenge, but he’s up for it as McKoy is just as sweet as she is mean. He doesn’t want the life his family expects him to live and he sure as hell won’t treat his wife as his father does his mother. Did his father actually believe his son didn’t know he has a mistress? He would like nothing more than to spend the rest of his life with McKoy. Beau already knew what he wanted to do with his life and it doesn’t include Ivy League college or a high society life.
I could sum up Beau in one word, idiot! He knows what he has in front of him and keeps screwing it up. Granted McKoy would get sick of him and break it off, then he does something sweet and then she takes him back after making him suffer for a while. We have been through this at least 10 times. At this point, I told McKoy shit or get off the pot, no more of this. We aren’t getting any younger. Personally, yes, I want them together. I know one day when he becomes a man he will be wonderful, he is just taking a little longer than some, well longer than Cooper. He is really the only one I can judge it by.
In our inner circle, we all have our parts. McKoy is the nurturing of us three. She wants us all always to get