combination
of the alcohol coursing through me and the building desire in my stomach. I
moaned again as his hand slid up, pinching one of my nipples. The sensation had
a direct line to my groin.
I grabbed the back of his head as he sucked hard on my clit
again. "James!" My orgasm crashed down on me. But the high didn't
last long. The reality of what he had just done quickly returned. Jesus. I pushed on his shoulders.
After one last stroke against my wetness, he pulled back and
stared at me.
I knew why I always let him have what he wanted. Because I
could never resist him. Not when he looked at me like that. Who was I kidding?
I could never resist him.
He started to unbutton his shirt.
My chest rose and fell as I tried to catch my breath. I stood
up and pointed my finger at him. "You can't just buy a new apartment and
not tell me about it. We're getting married. We need to make these kind of
decisions together. And we had already discussed this. It's too much change,
too fast."
He stood up too.
"I'm really mad at you," I added, when he didn't
say anything.
Ignoring me, he slowly removed his belt and unzipped his
pants, letting his erection spring free.
I quickly looked back up at his face. "What are you
doing? James, we need to talk about this."
His eyes were ablaze. "I like when you're mad at
me."
Fuck it. I grabbed the back of his head and pulled his
mouth to mine. He was always right. When I was mad at him, it just made me want
him even more.
***
James propped his head up on his hand and looked down at me.
"I think I know what you like, Penny."
I tried to suppress my smile and shook my head. After
everything he had just done to me, I didn't have any energy left to talk about
this right now. I winced slightly as I turned to face him. The odds that I
didn't have rug burn on my ass were slim to none. "It still would have
been nice to be part of the decision."
"I'm sorry."
I smiled up at him.
"But it was a present and I..."
I put my finger against his lips. "Don't ruin your
apology."
He grabbed my hand and kissed each of my knuckles.
"You're going to love it. I promise."
"As long as you're in it, I will." I ran my fingers
through the contours of his six pack. "So where is it?"
"Closer to where we'll both be working."
"You're impossible. You do realize that, right?"
He shrugged and smiled down at me. "We can walk to work
together every day. And we can walk to our new home together every night. We
can make detours through Central Park whenever you're missing the suburbs. It's
going to be wonderful."
"Thank you, James."
He tucked a loose strand of hair behind my ear. "Why
does it feel like you aren't thanking me for the new place?"
"I am. But it's not just that. Thank you for not getting
annoyed when I stayed up late studying so many nights. And for waiting to get
married until after I graduated. For putting your life on hold here while I
finished school. And for not getting mad at me when I'm stubborn for no reason.
And for just being you."
"You're awfully sentimental tonight." He pulled me
into his chest.
I'd never get enough of the sweet scent of his skin. "You've
given up so much to be with me."
He ran his fingers through my hair. "That's not the way
I see it."
I knew it wasn't how he saw it, but that's how it was. The
past few years I had been a burden. "There is no other way to see it,
James. I just want you to know how much I appreciate everything you've done.
Everything you've given me and everything you've given up."
"Penny, it goes both ways. What's mine is yours. And
what's yours is mine."
"But I don't have anything."
He rolled over, pinning my back to the rug. "You're
everything that I've ever wanted. These past two and a half years have been the
happiest of my life. We're getting married in a few weeks. You're the one
giving me everything."
"I'm worried that I'll always be a burden. I don't know
what I want to do now that I've graduated. I don't know what I want to
be."
He smiled down