entire world, the rest of the world inaccessible.”
Curiosity taking over her common sense, she asked, “Can you remember anything from those years?”
A dreamy look spread across Sabrina’s face. “Of course I do. Just as you do. Want to tell me about it, honey?”
Emily shrugged. “I don’t know. I think I’m going through a grieving process, considering that I’m finally able to realise what I actually lost twenty years ago.”
“Aww, honey. Why grieving? I thought you’d be happy to see him again.”
This time, Emily let out a long breath. “You know how Ethan always calls me a dreamer, right? Well, I think I’m exactly that, but—” She shrugged. “It’s time to grow up, I suppose.”
Sabrina placed a hand on Emily’s arm. “That sounds extremely gloomy. What happened?”
A customer came in, and Sabrina greeted him with a little good morning chit chat. Although Emily knew it wasn’t right, she took the opportunity anyway and walked towards the door.
“Honey, you owe me an answer.”
Emily smiled in reply and left.
What had happened?
Not sure herself, she walked down the street towards her car. Looking across the park towards the ocean, mesmerised by its enormity and magnetism, she wondered how someone could forget about this place.
Shaking her head, she yanked the door open and slid behind the wheel of her car. She knew that since talking to Connor her heart felt heavy and emotions had surfaced she hadn’t been aware of. The day he’d opened the door, the temptation to throw her arms around him was nearly as surprising as seeing him. Yet, his cool reception had nearly broken her heart, but so had the dejected expression on his face. She still couldn’t figure out his lack of memory. Had she really subconsciously believed all those years that Connor would come back for her? Ethan had once accused her after her last breakup with John that she compared her boyfriend to Connor. She’d laughed, stating how ridiculous the notion was, as Connor had been seven years old when she’d last seen him.
Had Ethan been right?
Shaking her head, she focussed on the car in front of her; the driver didn’t seem to know whether to stay on the right or left side of the road. Neither did he seem to know where he was going. She tried to stay calm. She needed to, because it was going to be a busy day with lots of patients to visit and reports to fill out.
Her last visit was with Jack. It hurt her so much that the old man wouldn’t make an effort to take his medication. She had hoped once Connor would be here that it’d be an incentive, but even that wasn’t enough to convince him to take the medication to help him. The ache inside her grew with each day as much as the cancer inside his body grew—hurting them both.
“Hello, Jack. How are you today?”
The old man stepped aside to let her in, and they headed towards the lounge room.
“How have you been?” she asked again.
They went into the lounge room where he sat down and leaned back, meeting her gaze. “Lots of talking. Lots of setting things straight.”
“With Connor I assume.”
Jack nodded. “His mother erased his memory, it seems, and told him lots of untruths.”
Emily stopped looking for the thermometer. “Untruths?”
It was obvious from only looking at Jack how hard the whole situation was for him. A few months ago, when Jack had told her that he’d hired an investigator to find Connor, she’d been excited about the idea to see him again. Then, a few days earlier, he’d opened the door for her and hadn’t even recognised her. But she’d never even considered Jack’s feelings once and pain shot through her.
“Would you like to talk about it?” she asked as she sat next to him.
The old man let out a long breath as he took her hands. Emily waited until he was ready to talk. The only noise in the room was the tick-tock of the old clock in the corner and the waves crashing against the rocks outside.
“I never fooled