capable of adapting to … husband-hood, as he did to fatherhood.
“I’m sorry,” Carter grumbled reluctantly under her breath. Sighing, she replaced her scowl with a forced smile. “A year and a half is a nice little chunk of time. Are things getting serious?”
He took a deep breath, glancing beyond both Carter and Nathan. A year and a half was a long, long time in Kyle years. And no, things were not getting serious, on his side at least. But being the asshole he was, Kyle wasn’t going to let Carter in on that fact. Instead, he gave her the answer that he knew would ruffle her feathers a bit. “Maybe,” he stated with an exaggerated shrugged.
“Feeling overwhelmed yet?” Nathan chuckled, amused by Kyle’s response.
“No,” he answered, smiling at Nathan’s amusement. His relationship with Aniyah was easy—easier than he’d thought a monogamous relationship would be at least—and fun a lot of the time. But a big difficulty in the relationship at the moment was time.
In the beginning of their relationship, Aniyah had been a lot more understanding about his lack of time, but now, a year and a half into their relationship, she’d become much more comfortable, and a ton more demanding. Being a single-father was both a joy and a full-time job, on top of his actual full time job. It wasn’t always easy, finding time to be with Aniyah, and the woman showed little interest in doing something involving Sofia, which admittedly didn’t bother Kyle at all. He enjoyed keeping the two worlds separate, keeping his daughter in one area of his life and Aniyah in another. As of now, he had no interest in combining the two, even though Aniyah was beginning to show signs of wanting a deeper commitment. Kyle wasn’t ready for that. Though he had changed, and was now a bit more open to … possibilities with women, he still didn’t want anything too serious. If he did, he’d be with someone else, not Aniyah. She was a good woman, there was no doubt about that, but her hesitation and disinterest in Sofia made a part of her—for lack of a better word—unappealing in many ways. Plus, when contemplating the possibility of actually settling down with a woman for life, a woman that was not Aniyah popped into his mind every single time … and it annoyed him how badly he wanted her, how quickly his feelings were growing. It scared him, and it hurt. But like he said, falling for a woman he could never have was his thing.
“Are you all right, Kyle?” Carter’s soft, concerned voice broke through his thoughts, reminding him that he was still standing in the conference room with both her and Nathan.
With a sigh, Kyle answered her question honestly. “I actually don’t know the answer to that, bella.”
As usual, deeper concern over took both of their expressions. Kyle had a knack for making his family worry about him.
He smiled in effort to calm them both before they said anything. “I’m all right, you two. I promise.” He was conflicted, and had been for a while now, but he wasn’t worried about anything. At this moment, he had everything he needed in his life. Though admittedly struggling in a few areas, Kyle was honestly happier than he’d ever been. Sofia made sure of that every single day. Every time his little ladybug smiled at him, Kyle was reminded of how blessed he was.
“You know we’re always here if you need to talk, right?”
Kyle nodded. Of course he knew that. His family was nothing if not supportive. And Nathan had actually been his number one supporter since the day his father had brought him back to America.
“I know,” Kyle whispered, once again gathering his coat and holster. “Thanks.” He hugged both Nathan and Carter once more. “Give the kids my love.” Just the thought of Nathan and Carter’s four young children was enough to bring a smile back to Kyle’s face. The three toddlers and their five-month old little sister were an … exciting bunch to say the least. Never a dull