Ryder and he makes you happy. I would never wish anything different for you.â
âBut you want something different for yourself?â she pressed, apparently hearing something behind his words.
âI want the Happily Ever After, but with someone simple.â
âSomeone not like Melissaâis that it?â
Sebastian was finding it difficult not to confide in his sister since theyâd never kept anything from each other before. He didnât want to start now. âThere was something between us,â he said, although he didnât quite know what to call the night he and Melissa had shared.
âSomething, huh? You think you can just make that something go away?â
âIâm trying, although itâs not easy,â he stated flatly. âThere are other things in my life that keep me busy.â
âLike your games? And your hacking?â Sebastian flinched as he heard the echo of his fatherâs words lashing out at him. Like father, like daughter.
Diana must have realized sheâd struck a sore point, for she apologized instantly. âI didnât mean to condemn.â
âDidnât you? You sounded just like him. RoboCop redux.â
Her color paled at his rebuke and her generous mouth thinned into a tight line. But she still reached out and laid a hand on Sebastianâs leg in an effort to soothe the sting of her words. â Hermanito , Iâm sorry. Itâs just you and I are so different that way.â
âDonât I know it. Didnât Dad tell me often enough that I should be more responsible? That I should care about school more.â His sister started to speak but Sebastian silenced her with an angry wave of his hand. âYou know what I remember best about Dad? Besides watching him die in your arms?â He paused, although he expected no answer to his question. âI must have been thirteen or fourteen. I was playing a game up in my room and Dad came in. He sat beside me, watching the screen but not talking. I tried to explain the rules, but after a few minutes, Dad mumbled something about wasting time playing games when life was so much more important.â
âHe just couldnât understand you,â Diana said, much as Sebastian expected she would. He adored his sister and trusted her judgment, but Diana had never grown beyond her hero worship of their police-officer father. She didnât realize that while being a champion to others, their father had often put his family second and ignored a son who was totally different in temperament and interests.
âDo you think Melissa could understand me?â
âI havenât thought about it,â Diana admitted.
âSheâs uptight and über-responsible. Iâm a no-strings-attached kind of guy.â He looked away from his sister. He didnât want her to see his confusion or his guilt. Despite his best efforts these last three months, he hadnât been able to forget Melissa.
More than most, he knew the hardship of conforming and being bound by anotherâs conventions. Sebastian sensed that Melissaâs life was not her own, that she needed an escape from the burdens she bore. He wanted to ease the weight off her shoulders. He hadnât felt that way in a long timeâas if he could help someone else. Be someone worthy for her. But heâd both disappointed and angered her tonight with his hesitation.
Funny how much it was like the situation with his father all over again.
After a long silent moment he turned to face his sister, not knowing what to expect. Certainly not the little Mona Lisa-like smile on her face. âSeems to me youâve been thinking about it way too much, hermanito .â
Sebastian stood, took a breath, about to tell her that he didnât want to talk about it, when Diana surprised him by saying, âIâve got to get some sleep. Hasta mañana .â She rose and gave him a quick kiss on the