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want to walk back in there and grab my wife. If I could do this for her I would. She is all alone back there while they remove my baby from her body. All our plans and all our dreams are being taken away with this baby. Our life was in this baby.
    After an hour , the nurse comes to get me so I can see my wife. She’s resting under heavy blankets. She looks so peaceful but I know this is a nightmare for both of us.
    Keira
    “Are you okay? “ He asks for the one hundredth time in two days.
    “I’m fine Lane.” I snap at him. “Sorry.” I regain my composure. “I really okay.” I hope I sound convincing because I need to stop thinking about this pain.
    “It’s just that you’ve been so quiet since you got home.”
    “Lane!” Oh crap, the tears have started. “I said I’m fine. Yes, you’re right. I am quiet. They just took my baby!” Lane flinches. “Just leave me alone.” I whisper. I have to roll over. I don’t want to see his hurt and disappointment in me. 
    “No!” His voice rises. “I won’t.  Don’t ignore me. Keira? ” His voice softens, “ Baby, I’m here for you.”
    I shake my head. I can’t look at him. I just can’t. Not yet.
    “Please, baby. Let me help you.”  He slides into the bed behind me. I can’t hold back any longer. I sob and wail so hard I know it scares him.
    I wince as I turn to face him. I am still sore from the procedure. “Did I hurt you baby?” He asks.
    “No.” I croak.It just hurts all over. My heart, my soul, my everything. It just hurts. I can’t tell where the physical pain ends and the emotional pain begins.
    We lay quietly. Lane finally breaks the silence. “I’m scared.” He admits. I look at him with questioning eyes. “I know you didn’t want to be pregnant. And now I’m scared I’m going to lose you.”
    I sit up. “What do you mean? I wanted this baby. Are you saying this is my fault?”
    “No. I just know you thought this,” He motioned back and forth between us, “was a mistake. Getting pregnant and then married. You were so unsure….” He trailed off.
    “You are blaming me. You think I made this happen? That I made our baby die?” I scream at him. “Lane, I got pregnant because you didn’t wear a condom. You wanted me to get pregnant, even if you never admit it, I know it. But I married you anyway.I trusted you. And because of this… this … situation you’re blaming me? ”
    He jumps up, pacing the floor. Out of nowhere, he asks, “So, are you going to leave me?” I don’t know how to respond or what to say. “Admit it. You want out.” He stops pacing. “So you can have your life back, right?” He says somberly. He looks so broken when he says the words.
    “ I don’t know what I want.” The last few months have been hell. Lane is always busy. We hardly talk to each other. Peanut was all we had holding us together and now that bond is gone. Maybe I do want my old life back. For the first time , I have to say it.  “Lane, you’re never home. I am by myself all the time. Now you can slow down.You know? And not take care of me. I mean, what about football?”
    “I don’t want to slow down. I am doing exactly what I want to do. I wanted to have you and a family. I don’t want football. I want you. But you don’t want to be here, do you?” His tone is calm but his eyes are accusing.
    I don’t know what to say. Not being pregnant changes everything doesn’t it? I should want my life back,right?
    My silence must speak volumes because Lane has a panicked terrified look on his face. “That’s just great. You’re leaving me.I lose my baby a few days ago and now my wife.”
    “I’m right here. I haven’t gone anywhere. I am right here.”
    “ You’re thinking about it. It’s okay to be honest with me.”
    “I…I don’t know.I just don’t know.” My mind is all over the place. I can’t tell what I should feel from what I really do feel. Before I can get the words out to explain the door slams. And just