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didn’t take the news very well, obviously he didn’t
want to go and really, I don’t blame him. While he and Elliott had come to an
understanding when I was dating Elliott, they’ve never actually spoken since I
David and I got together.
    All my life, it’s always been David. I loved him for so
long, but there came a point where I resigned myself to just being his friend.
I was ok with that. As long as he was in my life, I could handle anything.
    When I got hurt and David saved me, he became my world. It
would have been so easy to turn our friendship into something more then, but I
kind of felt as though he felt sorry for me and my pride took a big hit.
    I guess I pushed him away back then. I forced him to stay at
an arm’s length. There were little things that he’d do, that when I look back
now, made it really obvious that he wanted more from me. He made innuendos, he
touched me more than normal and he tried to tell me how he was feeling, but I
know I didn’t let him. I wasn’t ready. I didn’t want the reason we got together
to be laced with the pain of what Christopher had done to me. I needed to find
myself again first.
    Then I met Elliot. There was this great attraction between
us and it was the first time I was ready to act on my feelings. David took it
all really badly. I confronted him. More than once I confronted him. Secretly,
I just wanted him to say ‘because I’m in love with you.” I wanted that so much,
whether I admitted that to myself at the time or not. In my heart, all I’ve
ever wanted was for David to love me, but still, he said nothing.
    I think the reason I threw myself into the relationship with
Elliot was because I was so lost without David. We had gone to being a constant
in each other’s lives to not talking at all, and I felt like I had this great
gaping hole inside me. I think I used Elliot to fill that hole. We were never
right for each other. Even when Elliot and I did break up, the one thing that
had me crying the most – was that I didn’t have David to hold me and tell me
everything would be alright.
    When everything finally came to a head, it was as if the
stars had finally decided to line up for us. We were meant to be. I always knew
we were meant to be.
    I still get shivers down my spine when I think about the
moment he told me he loves me. Every time he says it, it fills me up. It lifts
me up and carries me through my days.
    I need to speak to him. He has to understand. I want him.
I’ll always want him.
    Picking up my phone, I press the picture of his beautiful
face to call him. But, it goes straight to voicemail.
    You know who you called, leave a message. I’ll call you
back.
    “David. Please call me. Come home. I love you.”

Chapter five
     

David
    “So you had a fight. It’s not the first one and it certainly
won’t be the last,” my mother says from across the table. Her partner, Alex,
comes over with steaming mugs of coffee for all of us.
    “Here you go mate,” he says as he places it in front of me. He
kisses my mother on the top of her head as he takes the seat next to her, and
they share an intimate smile.
    I really like Alex. He’s been living with my mother for a
little over a year now. They started dating not long after me and Trina moved
out together. I’m glad my mother found someone. She has given herself
wholeheartedly to me as a mother, and it’s about time she focused on her own
happiness - even if I am here whining about my own.
    “But she doesn’t want to marry me. What’s the point of being
together if we aren’t going to get married?” I complain.
    “Well, Alex and I aren’t exactly planning on marrying any
time soon. We’ve both been down that road before. Living together has all the
benefits of marriage, without any of the legal ownership,” she explains.
    “Ownership? That’s how you see marriage – as owning each
other?” I frown. I had never thought of it like that at all.
    “Well, yeah. Marriage changes things