literally.
âThere should be more rules,â he said later, when they were in the car driving home.
âLike a checklist?â Noelle asked.
âExactly. Itâs day thirty of your babyâs life. Here are all the things you need to do.â
She laughed. âDev, it canât be like that. Weâre talking about people, not an assembly line. Everyone is different.â
âWhy do they have to be? Rules would help. Itâs just the word you object to. What if I said âguidelinesâ?â
âIâm not sure it makes a difference. Besides, weâre going to have a long time before we have to worry about anything but midnight feedings and changing diapers.â She touched her stomach. âIâm barely showing.â
She wasnât taking this seriously, but then she didnât have his track record.
âI want more information,â he said. âWhen we get home, I want to go online and see what I can find out.â
âBut itâs late,â she said. âIâm tired.â
âYou go to bed. Iâll be along in a while.â
Her silence told him she wasnât happy with his decision. He thought about explaining, but took the cowardâs way out and didnât.
He couldnât do anything to help Jimmy, but with a little luck and a lot of determination, he could keep history from repeating itself with Jimmyâs child.
* * *
N OELLE HAD BEEN looking forward to the Sunday picnic at her parentsâ house all week. The day was sunny and warm and sheâd brought two kinds of salad.
Everything had changed in the past couple of weeks. She wanted to share the information with her mom, but knew that was impossible. Not without first revealing the real reason sheâd married Dev, and Noelle wasnât ready to do that yet. Or maybe ever.
âWeâre here,â she called as they walked through the empty house and out into the backyard. âHi!â
Noelle looked out at the crowd. Her parents were there, of course, along with a couple of neighbors. Her sisters had dates instead of girlfriends, except for Tiffany, who sat on a lounge chair by the pool, reading.
âYou made it,â her mother said, crossing the patio and kissing them both, then taking the salad bowl from Dev. âBob is dying for another guy to talk to. Please go rescue him.â
âI will. Thanks.â
Dev smiled at Noelle, then walked over to her father. The two men shook hands.
âHow are you?â her mother asked, linking arms with her and leading her into the kitchen. âIâm still getting used to having you gone.â
âI know,â Noelle said as she set her bowl on the counter. âIâm still getting used to living somewhere else.â
Her mother opened the refrigerator and made room. âHmmm, I might buy that, if you werenât so happy. I swear, Noelle, Iâve never seen you look so...â She straightened and studied her daughter. âContent.â
âIâm happy,â Noelle said honestly, knowing sheâd felt things for Dev sheâd never felt before. âI love my life.â
âThen Iâm happy, too. Iâll admit I was a little nervous when you ran off and got married. It was so unlike you.â
âI know, Mom. Iâm sorry. I didnât mean to hurt you or Dad.â
âWe werenât hurt. Just surprised. But itâs worked out for the best and thatâs all I could hope for.â
Tiffany walked into the kitchen. âIâm bored,â she announced with all the pain inherent in a moody fifteen-year-old.
âI told you to invite some friends,â her mother said.
âI hate that we have to talk about how something happened in our week that changed us. Itâs stupid.â She sighed heavily. âWhy do there have to be so many rules?â
Noelle had always felt she and her sisters stood against their parents, but suddenly she