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that his smile looked genuine because the sadness that settled in his
heart almost brought him to his knees. Then Sebastian made a comment that had
him going into a full out panic attack mode.
    “ You ’ re
next little brother! ” Sebastian
chuckled and grabbed Christian ’ s shoulders
from behind, giving him a playful shake.
    Christian
swallowed back the bile that rose in his throat. His heart pounded wildly in
his chest and his vision went a little fuzzy. He tried to pull in a deep breath
but he just couldn ’ t.   Henry, who was standing in front of him,
frowned and took Adalyn out of his arms.
    “ Chris,
you okay? You look really pale, ” Henry
said, concerned.
    Christian
jerkily shook his head and raced down the hall toward the bathroom. He heard
Sebastian call, “ I was only
kidding! ” just as he
shut the door behind him. He sat down on the edge of the tub and tucked his
head between his knees. He pulled in a breath through his nose and blew it out
of his mouth. He repeated this until he got his anxiety under control.
    Christian
rested his face in his hands. What the
fuck? How the hell was he supposed to ever tell his family that he would
most likely never be getting “ married ” ?     Now, all of his brothers were going to be
married and popping out kids while he hid his relationship with his best friend
and let his family think that he just didn ’ t
want to settle down. He was never going to fit in with his brother ’ s
perfect lives and it killed him. He hated that he was never going to be able to
give his mother the grandchildren that she expected him to have. Even Quinn,
who had been super fucked up from being raped as a child was now getting
married and would most likely have kids in the near future. He was next in
line; his family expected him to follow in their footsteps; they expected him
to get married and have kids. Little did they know that it wasn ’ t
possible for Christian.
    A
light knock sounded on the door followed by Margot ’ s
voice. “ Christian? Chéri ,
can I come in? ”
    “ Yeah. ” Christian sighed and straightened up.
    She
walked into the bathroom and closed the door behind her. “ Is
everything okay? ” she asked,
her tone concerned.
    “ Yeah,
I ’ m fine.   Just a panic attack. ”
    “ But
why? ” she asked curiously, her gaze
on him was more perceptive than he would have liked.
    He
shrugged. “ Don ’ t
know, sometimes they just hit me out of nowhere, ” he said. It was partially the truth; sometimes they did come out of nowhere,
just not this time.
    “ Mmm
hmm, but as soon as Sebastian said that you were next, you had a panic attack, ” she said with a pointed look.
    Dammit! “ I...it...it ’ s
just not in the cards for me, that ’ s
all, ” he muttered, averting his
eyes, hoping Margot didn ’ t see too
much.
    “ Why
not? You are a very handsome man, Christian. I am sure you have women falling
at your feet all of the time, ” she said,
sitting down next to him on the side of the tub.
    Why
did she have to be so damn persistent?
    “ Or
would you rather it be men? ” Margot
whispered.
    He
whipped his head around to stare at her in shock. How that hell did she know? She gave him a gentle smile and nodded
as she patted his thigh.
    “ Oui,
that is what I thought. ”
    Christian ’ s
mouth worked but nothing came out.
    “ You
do not have to worry, I will not say anything, it is your secret to tell, ” she said softly then stood and headed for the door.
    “ Margot! ” he called after her.
    Margot
turned with her hand on the doorknob.   She raised an eyebrow and waited for him
to continue.
    “ How? ” Christian sputtered.
    “ That
is my secret, ” she said with a wink before leaving him alone in the bathroom.
    Holy fucking shit! Someone
knew! This meant that other people could know, too! What if Margot couldn ’ t
keep it a secret and told Quinn? Oh god! Christian scrambled to the toilet just in time.
     
 

 
 
    Quinn
got undressed and