mention my name and Paris in the same sentence, I hope?â
Mother stood for a moment silhouetted in the last orange and gold rays of the setting sun, and I marveled for the hundredth time at her strength and resilience. I knew that Williamâs death meant more to her than just the passing of a dear and treasured friend. With William gone she was the last one of her generation left. There were no more ties to a beloved and happy past. She was alone now, a dinosaur, a lovely and elegant white-haired dinosaur.
I struggled up from the rocker to give her an embrace, but she turned from the sunset and held out a small silver tray with wine for us and a soft drink for Cassie. Mother raised her glass in a toast.
âSalud, my darlings. The wine has been under the stairs since Christmas, but I think itâs still potable. What a lovely sky. My goodness, look at that gorgeous harvest moon!â
I could see Cassie opening her mouth to contradict her grandmother. I knew that the harvest moon does not appear until after the last day of summer, and so did sheâso did Mother for that matter. I shook my head just a bit. Cass obeyed and backed down from what could have been the beginning of one of their silly disagreements over trivial facts. I sighed in relief as Mother settled comfortably on the rocker next to me.
We sipped the crisp wine and gazed at the ânot yetâ harvest moon in peace if not contentment. The crickets and the tiny little croakers down in the pond began their twilight song. The deep blue that immediately follows sunset surrounded us for a brief gorgeous moment and then deepened into true nightfall. The little solar-powered cap lights twinkled along the walkway and confused countless yearning fireflies that blinked back in unrequited love.
With Cassie at college in Atlanta and me in New York trying to sell my latest childrenâs book, almost a year had passed since the three of us had been here together. I felt a lump form in my throat as I realized how much this place and being here with these two people meant to me. Tonight was definitely not the time to burst into sentimental tears.
âBilly has the place looking like a million dollars,â I offered in a scratchy voice.
âAnd thatâs just about what he charges,â replied Mother shaking her head. âI may have to find somebody else. Maybe I can hire some high school student. I do have the tractor mower you know. Itâs hardly been used since your father died. Maybe one of Mavisâs grandsons could help out.â
âBut Gran,â protested Cassie, âBilly has been working for you and Granpapa since I was a little girl. He taught me how to ride a horse and fish and climb trees. You canât fire him. Heâs like one of the family.â
âItâs not a matter of firing him, darling. Itâs a matter of not being able to afford him. After all, he has a family to support. He cannot charge me less than his services are worth.â
âMother, I didnât realize you were in a bind.â
I felt the lump again, a big guilty lump.
âI should be getting this last book deal signed by the end of October. Pam will send me the advance. I should have helped out before now.â
âNonsense, Paisley, Iâm fine, really. For heavenâs sakes, letâs not discuss anything as depressing as money. Hasnât the day been morbid enough?â
Cassie cheerfully ignored her grandmotherâs request.
âSpeaking of money, Gran, how much do you think William left you? Wouldnât it be terrific if he left you all of Abigailâs AT&T? Then you wouldnât have to worry about anything. Forget about Paris. This is your home. It comes first. And the house does need a new coat of paint.â
I could feel Motherâs dilemma. Ordinarily, she loved to speculate on any and all aspects of a given situation, but this was different. Like me, she felt it was improper to discuss