seconds, Harriet has everything under control â shortbread and tray dumped into the sink, oven shelf quickly following.
âWhat are you playing at? You know that if we donât keep things under control, theyâll take you away. Is that what you want?â
âOf course not.â
âWell youâve a funny way of showing it. I thought you were going to act responsibly?â
âI am! I was justââ
âNicking off school and setting the place on fire?â
My heart sinks. I only wanted to make Harriet smile.
âIf Mam hears about this,â continues Hatty. âItâll set her right back.â
âAnd itâll be all my fault. You sound just like her.â Itâs too late to stay out of trouble and I canât seem to stop my mouth. âMaybe Iâd be better off if the Social Services did take me away?â
âSometimes I wonder why the hell I bother!â snaps Harriet.
I roll my eyes. âGo back to your precious uni. I donât need you to look after me.â
Harriet grabs me by the shoulders and shakes me harder than I expect, her face puckering with anger.
âDonât be such an ungrateful bitch!â she spits.
My ears and teeth rattle, but I donât bother to fight back. Instead, I focus on the points of her fingers digging intomy flesh, my eyes resting on the sink where my ruined shortbread lies black and smouldering. My stomach growls as I watch the red cinders of my shortbread die out, one by one. Why canât Harriet see Iâm trying to do something nice?
Wriggling free, I snatch up the recipe book and stomp up to my room.
âIâm a bitch? Then what are you?â I shout down the stairs before slamming the door.
Itâs our first fight since Mam went away and the lovely lemony flavour turns sour in my mouth. I ball my fists and punch into my mattress. Only when my knuckles start getting sore do I feel a bit better.
âItâs all your stupid fault,â I say, flinging the cookbook across the room. âIt was a ridiculous idea.â
The book slams against the wall and lands on the floor, open on the inscription page. I can see my dadâs words from here, full of love and tenderness.
âWhy did you have to leave?â I say, my voice cracking.
Pushing my face into my pillow, I let the tears fall, resolving to never set foot in the kitchen again.
Chapter Five
The Three Amigos
Itâs almost 8.15 a.m. when Hatty shakes me awake, a freshly laundered and ironed uniform in her hands. She drops the uniform on my bed as I clamber out, but thereâs no sign of any note to explain my absence. Iâm expecting fireworks and lectures, but it doesnât happen. Instead, her voice is cool and clipped.
âYou know you canât keep nicking off school, right?â says Harriet, her best frown in place.
âRight,â I agree, my head hung low.
âI know you were trying to do something nice, and itâs good youâve got an interest, butâ¦â
âBut?â
My voice is more defiant than I mean it to be, but thereâs bound to be something bad coming. Like getting grounded or being walked to school to make sure I get there. For the rest of my life.
âWe have to keep our noses clean if weâre to keep things as they are.â
âYou donât even want to be here!â
Itâs hard to keep my voice from wobbling. My head feels heavy, my heart heavier still, and my hands shake as I turn my back to my sister and start getting dressed. My shirt smells of wild flowers, and I breathe it in.
âIâm sorry for what I said, but I was worried â what if the place burned down? With you trapped inside?â She reaches out and touches my shoulder. âWhere would I be without my lil sis?â
I pull away, but only because sheâs making me feel bad. Iâm the one that messed up, and sheâs apologizing!
âIâm sorry