probably hoping I didnât notice as well.
While we ate, we visited the past, talked about old friends and new ones. He told me about his recent promotions and how heâd made a comfortable life in New Orleans.
âTrinity is never moving out, you know that right?â I said, when he mentioned his sister.
He laughed in agreement. âYeah, youâre probably right. Howâs your sister?â
âIndia is still India and still playing by her own rules.â
âShe still in school?â he asked, shoving a piece of steak into his mouth.
âOf course she is. She wouldnât be India if she wasnât taking some class somewhere.â I laughed.
I truly believed my sister was trying to make college her career. Other than occasional work-study programs, the money that our grandfather left us, and the fact that our father had enough foresight to be well insured before he died, sheâd never held down a regular job.
I asked, âWhatâs up with Camille, yâall ready to walk down the aisle?â
He chuckled. âExcuse me?â
I smiled. âYou heard me. You and Camille? Married?â
âNo wedding bells this way, we stopped seeing each other a little while ago.â
I rolled my eyes. âWhatâs up with that?â
He smiled and took a sip of his orange juice. âSo,â he started, âhowâs your little boy? Whatâs his name again?â
âOh so I guess we changing the subject?â I asked.
âYou would be guessing right.â
I took a sip of my coffee. âCameron. His name is Cameron.â
âCameron, thatâs right,â he repeated. âHopefully, I get to see him before I leave. Last time I was home he was still a baby and I definitely wanna stop by and holler at your mom.â
I nodded and smiled. âDefinitely. Last time you came I didnât even get see you, I had to hear about it secondhand.â
âI know that was my fault. I came in to handle some things for my mom and I dipped back out. Howâs your grandmother?â he asked.
âSheâs okay. Last winter she fell and broke her hip so Mama moved her in with her.â
âOh wow, Iâm sorry to hear that.â
âShe was outside on the ground for almost an hour before someone realized she was there and came to help her.â
He shook his head and took a drink of his orange juice. âWow. Well itâs a good thing sheâs with your mom now.â
Sitting there with him I had so many things going through my mindâemotions that I didnât recognize and some I knew all to well. I knew how much I was risking, sitting here with him, but it felt good to be around him again. I missed my best friend; I missed talking with him like we used to do. Throughout college he was constantly a shoulder for me when it came to Lincoln. He was always good at picking me up and dusting me off, and assuring me that things would always work outâeventually.
My thoughts were interrupted by his voice.
âWell Iâm really glad things are good with you.â
I smiled up at him. âYeah, things are pretty good. I canât really complain.â
His face softened. âThen seriously, I really am happy for you.â
âDonât get it twisted, we have our issues but what couple doesnât? His hours are crazy, but we make it work.â
He took a bite of his steak. âI donât think I could handle being responsible for anyone else.â
âSo you donât think youâll move back at all?â
âI doubt it,â he said between bites. âThereâs nothing here for me.â
I sank back in my seat and looked at him. Different emotions took jabs at me with his statement, my mind was cloudy and I was crossing lines that had been drawn in the sand a long time ago.
He held his hands out for me to take, and I did. I looked up into his eyes and was surprised to find sympathy living