is making another couple of drinks and the woman standing next to me is looking at me with a frown on her face.
“Sorry, what did you say?”
She leans in and licks her lips, she has lipstick on her teeth. I can’t help but wince at the ugliness of the red concoction smeared on her two front teeth.
“Do you want to go someplace quieter?” She flutters her fake eyelashes. I’m not feeling this connection at all, and all I want to do is go to bed. This has been a very tiring day and I’m off back to Oxford in the morning.
“Look gorgeous, it’s been a pleasure talking to you but I’m sorry nothing is going to happen with us tonight.”
She pulls back with her eyes opened wide. “What? You’ve been all over me and now you don’t want to?” She plants her hands on her hips and she looks infuriated. “How dare you lead me on like you have!” She’s starting to get louder and I really can’t deal with a woman screeching at me.
“Okay, R…” I’m stumped as to her name, and she looks really pissed.
“My name is Ruth, you asshole!” She stomps her foot and walks away. Resting my arms on the bar, I drop my head in my hands. This day has been a nightmare from the start. It all began with Tracy. Why am I so attracted to her? Why did she have to get under my skin? No one has done that in a long time. Not since Beth…
Beth was a girl I started seeing in secondary school. It was that typical ‘my parents were friends with hers’ and they literally had us paired off since our parents first met. We used to do everything together, and in some ways, she was my best friend. I always protected her from the meatheads at school. Beth was a popular girl with short brown hair, hazel eyes and the most delectable curves. She was one of the girls that had hit puberty early, and one of the reasons why every guy was after her. That was where I came in. Whenever we went to parties, I would be there to protect her. She never realized that I held a torch for her myself. She was constantly in my thoughts, day and night consumed my life, and I loved her. I never believed that Beth would reciprocate the feelings for me, and it took us ages to finally get together.
We both applied for the same college in London and luckily enough, we both got in. It was exciting going to college, and even more exciting, going with Beth. We both ended up moving into the dorms, and going there was the start of our college experience. I was scared of starting college. I know it seems like a wussy thing to feel, but it was entirely different to being in school. There were new people and being away from my parents was tough. Beth was going to make new friends and that didn’t sit right with me, especially if they were male. She was always good at making friends and she made many on the first day of term. We didn’t see each other as much as we used to, but Beth always set aside some time for me. I made a few friends myself, but all I wanted was to be with Beth.
After waiting three months, I needed to tell Beth how I felt. She was gaining a lot of interest and attention from guys and it pissed me off. Eventually, she was going to start dating, and I couldn’t stand idly by and watch her with someone else.
Me and my mates got invited to a dorm party and I found out that Beth and her friends were going too. The party was in full swing when we arrived, and all I could think about was Beth. I left my mates at the door and went in search of her. The party was very chaotic and it wasn’t just in one room. The party expanded along the whole corridor, and there were so many people milling around. It was becoming impossible to squeeze through all the bodies either standing or dancing. I weaved in and out until I finally saw her leaning against the wall. She was laughing with a tall, muscular guy in faded jeans and a tight green T-shirt. I was incredibly jealous watching her fawning all over this guy that I hadn’t seen before. It was my fault