of school. Her friend had seemed like a fairy with her fine blond hair and bright blue eyes. She was gregarious and fun and expected people to be good and kind.
The first time Eve spent the night at Abraâs house it all made sense. Abra was deeply loved. Although she was still Amish at that time, that night Abraâs mother prayed with the girls, out loud, asking for both of them to be covered by Godâs grace. After sheâd kissed them good-night, she said that God connected people to each other and to him. âThatâs what love does,â sheâd said. Eve had never forgotten that. Years later she realized that sin did the oppositeâit tore us apart from God and others.
After Eve diapered and changed the baby and tucked Trudy into her crib, she helped the girls finish the dishes and then sent them into the living room to play a game of Scrabble with the boys, whoâd insisted that their Dat didnât want any help.
Eve was sure that was true. Tim grew even moodier in the evenings.
Once the popcorn was done she called the children to the table, but just as they sat down Tim came through the back door.
âHowâs the cow doing?â Eve asked, dishing the popcorn into individual bowls.
âFalse alarm,â he said. âI think she has a few more days.â
He headed into the living room, and the kids ate their popcorn in silence. When Lila had finished hers, she stood and said, âIâm going to go read in bed.â
âMe too,â Daniel said.
âWhat about our game?â Simon leaned across the table.
âWeâll finish it tomorrow,â Lila said, patting her little brotherâs head as she walked by.
Roseâs lower lip jutted out. âI donât want to go to bed yet.â
âYou donât have to,â Lila said.
Rose glanced at Eve, who simply shrugged.
The younger children ended up pulling out a puzzle in the living room. A couple of times Rose asked Tim a question, but he didnât answer. After a short time Simon and Rose went to bed too. After tucking them in, Eve sat down with her knitting.
Finally Tim yawned and stretched, and then he stood. âDid you give away that quilt?â
She stared at the yarn in her lap. âWhy?â
He stepped in front of her. âWhy would you want to give away something Abra made for you?â
She wrapped the yarn around the needle. âFrom what you said this morning, I didnât think you minded.â
âI do mind.â He tugged on his beard. âDid you?â
She raised her head, determined to keep her voice even. âJah, I did.â
He turned toward the hallway. âWhat a waste.â
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W hen Shani woke the next morning it took her a minute to remember theyâd moved to the farm. It wasnât until she became aware of the quilt against her chin that she realized where they were. She patted the other side of the bed for Joel and then rose up on one elbow. He was gone.
She grabbed her robe from the end of the bed and hurried down the hall, past the row of boxes. He wasnât in the living room. She registered the smell of coffee.
He stood at the kitchen sink, a cup in one hand and his cane in the other.
âGood morning,â she said.
He turned toward her. He hadnât shaved, but he was dressed in sweatpants and a long-sleeved T-shirt. He raised his mug. âCoffee? Itâs decaf.â
She couldnât help but smile. Heâd been worried about her caffeine intake even though sheâd assured him a cup of regular each day wouldnât hurt the baby. âThanks,â she said, pouring herself a cup. It was the first time heâd made coffee since he was home on furlough last April.
âSorry about yesterday,â he mumbled.
âItâs all right,â she answered, stepping to his side. She startedto put her head on his shoulder but thought that might put him off balance. Instead she reached up and