motherâs silence, fading? What had become of everything that had gone on here? âHello hello,â she said. âHello hello hello helloâ¦â
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The bus ticket cost Francie eighteen dollars. Which left not all that much of the seventy-three and a bit that sheâd saved up, fortunately, to get her back to school and, in fact, Francie thought, to last for the rest of her life. âBut, hey,â Jessica returned just long enough to point out, âyouâll be getting free therapy.â
Francie put her box on the overhead rack and scrambled to a window seat. West Tenth Street . West of what? The tenth of how many? How on earth was she going to find her way around? If only her mother had let her go last year when Jessica invited her to spend Thanksgiving in New York with her family. But Francieâs mother had been able to picture Jessicaâs mother just as easily as Francie had been able to. âOut of the question,â sheâd said.
ââ¦if thereâs no spouse⦠â So, her mother must have used his name on that form! They must never have got a divorce. Could he be a bigamist? Some people were. And he might think Francie was coming to blackmail him. He might decide to kill her right then and thereâjust reach over and grab aâ¦aâ¦
Well, one thingâhe wasnât living on the street; she had his address. And he wasnât totally feebleminded; heâd sent a fax. Whatever he was, at least what he wasnât was everything except that. And the main thing he wasnât, for absolute certain, was a guy whoâd been mashed by a bus.
âWould you like a hankie?â the lady in the seat next to Francieâs asked, and Francie realized that she had wiped her eyes and nose on her sleeve. âI have one right here.â
âOh, wow,â Francie said gratefully, and blew her nose on the handkerchief the lady produced from a large, shabby cloth sack on her lap.
Despite the shabbiness of the sack, Francie noticed, the lady was tidy. And pretty. Not pretty, really, but exactâwith exact little hands and an exact little face. âDo you live in New York?â she asked Francie.
âIâve never even been there,â Francie said. âMy roommate from school invited me to visit once, but my mother wouldnât let me go.â Jessicaâs family had a whole apartment building to themselves, Jessica had told her; sheâd called it a âbrownstone.â It was when Francie had foolishly reported this interesting fact that her mother put her foot down. âActually,â Francie added, âI think my mother was afraid. We had a giant fight about it.â
âA mother worries, of course,â the lady said. âBut itâs a lovely city. People tend to have exaggerated fears about New York.â
âYeah,â Francie said. âWell, I guess maybe my mother had exaggerated fears about a lot of things. Sheââ The box! Where was the box? Oh, thereâon the rack. Francieâs heart was beating rapidly; clashing in her brain were the desire to reveal and the desire to conceal what had become, in the short course of the conversation, a secret. âDo you live in New York?â she asked.
âTechnically, no,â the lady said. âBut Iâve spent a great deal of happy time there. I know the city very well.â
Francieâs jumping heart flipped over. âHave you ever been to West Tenth Street?â she asked.
âI have,â the lady said.
Francie didnât dare look at the lady. âIs it a nice street?â she asked carefully.
âVery nice,â the lady said. âAll the streets are very nice. But it seems a strange day to be going there.â
âItâs strange for me,â Francie said loudly. âMy mother died.â
âIâm terribly sorry,â the lady said. âMy mother died as well. But evidently no one was hurt