concerned.
“Invite me in for a cold beer,” he said as he pulled the key from the ignition. “Least you can do.”
Sampson was already up and out of the car. He moves like a slick winter wind when he wants to. “Let’s go inside, Alex.”
I had the car door open, but I was still sitting inside. “I live here. I’ll go in when I feel like it.” I didn’t feel like
it suddenly. A sheen of cold sweat was on the back of my neck. Detective paranoia? Maybe, maybe not.
“Don’t be difficult,” Sampson called back over his shoulder, “for once in your life.”
A long icy shiver ran through my body. I took a deep breath. The thought of the human monster I had recently helped put away
still gave me nightmares. I deeply feared he would escape one day. The mass killer and kidnapper had already been to Fifth
Street once.
What in hell was going on inside my house?
Sampson didn’t knock on the front door, or ring the bell, which dangled on red-and-blue wires. He just waltzed inside as if
he lived there. Same as it’s always been.
Mi casa es su casa.
I followed him into my own house.
My boy, Damon, streaked into Sampson’s outstretched arms, and John scooped up my son as if he were made of air. Jannie came
skating toward me, calling me “Big Daddy” as she ran. She was already in her slipper-sock pajamas, smelling of fresh talcum
after her bath. My little lady.
Something was wrong in her big brown eyes. The look on her face froze me.
“What is it, my honeybunch?” I asked as I nuzzled against Jannie’s smooth, warm cheek. The two of us nuzzle a lot. “What’s
wrong? Tell your Daddy all your troubles and woes.”
In the living room I could see three of my aunts, my two sisters-in-law, my one living brother, Charles. My aunts had been
crying; their faces were all puffy and red. So had my sister-in-law Cilla, and she isn’t one to get weepy without a good reason.
The room had the unnatural, claustrophobic look of a wake.
Somebody has died,
I thought.
Somebody we all love has died.
But everybody I love seemed to be there, present and accounted for.
Nana Mama, my grandmother, was serving coffee, iced tea, and also cold chicken pieces, which no one seemed to be eating. Nana
lives on Fifth Street with me and the kids. In her own mind, she’s raising the three of us.
Nana had shrunk to around five feet by her eightieth year. She is still the most impressive person I know in our nation’s
capital, and I know most of them—the Reagans, the Bush people, and now the Clintons.
My grandmother was dry-eyed as she did her serving. I have rarely seen her cry, though she is a tremendously warm and caring
person. She just doesn’t cry anymore. She says she doesn’t have that much of life left, and she won’t waste it on tears.
I finally walked into the living room and asked the question that was beating against the inside of my head. “It’s nice to
see everyone—Charles, Cilla, Aunt Tia—
but would someone please tell me what’s going on here?
”
They all stared at me.
I still had Jannie cradled in my arms. Sampson had Damon tucked like a hairy football under his massive right arm.
Nana spoke for the assembled group. Her almost inaudible words sent the sharpest pain right through me.
“It’s Naomi,” she said quietly. “Scootchie is missing, Alex.” Then Nana Mama started to weep for the first time in years.
Chapter 6
C ASANOVA SCREAMED, and the loud sound coming from deep inside his throat turned into a raspy howl.
He was crashing through the deep woods, thinking about the girl he had abandoned back there. The horror of what he had done.
Again.
Part of him wanted to go back for the girl—
save her
—an act of mercy.
He was experiencing spasms of guilt now, and he began to run faster and faster. His thick neck and chest were covered with
perspiration. He felt weak, and his legs were rubbery and undependable.
He was fully conscious of what he had done. He just