family. A wife and son. Thereâs no contact at all. Not even letters. Mom hears news about him from an old aunt who still lives in Poland. This aunt has an apartment across the hall from my fatherâs apartment. She is so old that she actually knew my fatherâs parents and grandparents!â
âYou could visit your father, couldnât you?â asks Sarah. âPoland isnât communist any more.â
âOf course I could,â I say, âif I had the money. And if he invited me. But so far he hasnât invited me. Mom thinks my fatherâs present wife is jealous of me and wonât let him see me.â
âIs your Aunt Hanna really old?â says Sarah, flicking her long, perfect hair.
âPretty old,â I say. âFifty-nine. Sheâs a total invalid.â
âThatâs awful,â repeats Sarah. âMy family is so boring compared to yours. My father calls us a FOOF: âFine Old Ontario Family. Pop, Mom, boy, girl. Healthy. Wealthy. Wise.â Thatâs why Iâve got to get out of here. One more year, and Paris here I come. Or New York.â
âI can see your name in lights now,â I say. âTONIGHT: SARAH SMITH!â
âNo, no! Too WASP! Iâm changing my name to something Arab, or French, or . . .â
âHow about Naomi Goralski?â I ask, smiling fakely.
âHey! Thatâs it! Jewish and Polish! How glamorous can you get?â Sarah says.
Sarah and I make a few more dumb name jokes, then she continues down the sidewalk to her gorgeous, gleaming, white, two-storey, Cape Cod house a few blocks away.
Sarah lives near where Curtis lives. One day I checked out their addresses in the phone book, and then I walked past Sarahâs house. I was too embarrassed to walk past Curtisâ house, so I donât know what it looks like. Curtis has not phoned me yet, so I suppose I was mistaken about the intensity of his glances at me. I am really disappointed that he has not called.
As I trudged up our cracked, weed-filled driveway to my run-down house, I was thinking that Sarah would have laughed hysterically if I had told her about my heartfelt desire to sing with her band and have a boyfriend.
âHi!â I say to Hanna, leaning into my old room.
âHello!â says Hanna. With a single word, she reveals that she is a foreigner. She pronounces
hello
like HALLO.
Her expression is gentle and sweet. This makes me feel guilty, but I still donât want to visit with her right now, so I rush off to the kitchen for a snack.
As Iâm eating vanilla yoghurt mixed with sliced banana and granola, I pull my marked history assignment out of my backpack and read Mr. Dunlopâs comments: âA+. This is outstanding. Maybe you would like to collect more of your familyâs memories of World War II for a longer, special project.â
A+? Hey! I am not a bad student. I always pass. But this is my first A+! Trust my mother, the ace student, to get an A+. I get mostly Bs. My mother says I donât âapply myselfâ. I could use an A+ in history. But unfortunately, thereâs nobody in my family to interview.
I started working last week. My job is cleaning at the Mapleville Recreation Complex, about six blocks from where we live. The job is hard. Huge mops. Heavy buckets of water. Dozens of toilets and sinks to scrub. Kilometres of walls and floors to wash. Minimum wage. Naturally. Weekends and holidays. Naturally. But Iâm lucky to have any job.
If it werenât for Mary, I would have quit after the first hour. Mary is a medical doctor from Poland who is working as a cleaner because sheâs not licenced to practice medicine in Canada. Mary is older than Hanna: sixty-six. She is well dressed, sophisticatedand humorous. She came to Canada eight years ago.
Mary has been cleaning full time at the Rec Plex for four years. She is my supervisor, but she helps me a lot. She doesnât just